Fast Forward fo Events...
Oh my god... seems like a lot has happened our the past few days.
Ok, for one thing, I did get it right the last time, about the trip being extended. He came back on Wednesday ^_^ I was so happy to hear from him then. He called the moment he reached the airport and then we met up that night. I stayed over at his place again.
Not only that, it was rather unexpected but we had sex that night. I'm not sure how it happened, it just did. I don't think he planned it either. At one point, I just asked him if our current situation was 'frustrating' coz I was against sex, and at first he said not really. But later on, he changed his answer to 'a little sometimes'... and later on again, it just happened.
Do I regret doing it? Yes and no... he means a lot to me, and apart from my occasional securities, I think he's pretty serious about me too. But still, I do admit that if given a choice, I probably would have changed history. Not to say that I didn't like it, but I do still get insecure over him. I did admit it to him today though, the fact that sex is the one main thing I'd regret if we ever broke up. All he said to that was (after a short silence) 'Don't break up lor' =P As if life's that simple...
Anyway, we've done it 3 times already, and at the beginning, I guess I was wondering, is this something that's on his mind like....all the time? I worry a lot about being used. Honestly though, when my mind's stable and hmm...sane? Oh well, when I'm thinking clearly on times when no insecurities are triggered, I think that he just isn't exactly familiar with our different world, and acts only according to how he thinks might be good for me. Weird as it seems i guess :-S
Hmm... I went back to cyber on thurs night expecting to avoid him for the week to finish of the last of my classes. And then I found out all classes were cancelled... and so on Friday, I decided that I wanted to see him again ^_^ He didn't have the car on that day so I drove over instead. Wow... this may sound stupid but I'm actually proud of myself for reaching his place without any help. I was all prepared to get lost on the way or something... *bad bad bad sense of direction*
We went to this little Italian place for dinner, and he introduced me to blue cheese pizza and some raw beef dish, not entirely my kind of food but I certainly did have loads of fun with him that night.
Then today, I originally planned to go home in the afternoon, but we ended up watching a movie in MV. And it was at 6... so I ended up home much later than originally planned =P But dad didn't seem to mind.
We brought up the issue of telling my family about him yesterday night during dinner. I had meantioned that for a relationship to be serious, I'd at least have to be able to tell them about him. And so he asked, since they don't know about him, does that mean I'm not serious? Well, I am serious, but I do really need to tell them about him. And so now we're kind of trying to figure out a way for them to know about him =P
One plan I was thinking of doing earlier, but we didn't bother using it, was to take him home with me, let him help me carry my stuff in, and then go out for movies with him. That way they'd at least know I was going out on a date with him... but I decided not to since MV's kinda near to his place... rather not drive to Subang and MV and back home again.
I was even trying to drop some hints tonight... talked about being in MV, talked about the blue cheese pizza which I wanted dad to try... But they don't seem to be getting the hints. Surprisingly, they never asked who I was out with today, nor did they ask how I ended up eating in that Italian shop.
Bah... I'll figure something out soon. I really want to tell them, even if I'm not sure they'd like Jin. Well, cover up the tattoo, hide the tail... he'll do fine I think.
We'll see how it goes in a few days. Maybe I'll bring it up tomorrow? Scary thought...
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Ok, for one thing, I did get it right the last time, about the trip being extended. He came back on Wednesday ^_^ I was so happy to hear from him then. He called the moment he reached the airport and then we met up that night. I stayed over at his place again.
Not only that, it was rather unexpected but we had sex that night. I'm not sure how it happened, it just did. I don't think he planned it either. At one point, I just asked him if our current situation was 'frustrating' coz I was against sex, and at first he said not really. But later on, he changed his answer to 'a little sometimes'... and later on again, it just happened.
Do I regret doing it? Yes and no... he means a lot to me, and apart from my occasional securities, I think he's pretty serious about me too. But still, I do admit that if given a choice, I probably would have changed history. Not to say that I didn't like it, but I do still get insecure over him. I did admit it to him today though, the fact that sex is the one main thing I'd regret if we ever broke up. All he said to that was (after a short silence) 'Don't break up lor' =P As if life's that simple...
Anyway, we've done it 3 times already, and at the beginning, I guess I was wondering, is this something that's on his mind like....all the time? I worry a lot about being used. Honestly though, when my mind's stable and hmm...sane? Oh well, when I'm thinking clearly on times when no insecurities are triggered, I think that he just isn't exactly familiar with our different world, and acts only according to how he thinks might be good for me. Weird as it seems i guess :-S
Hmm... I went back to cyber on thurs night expecting to avoid him for the week to finish of the last of my classes. And then I found out all classes were cancelled... and so on Friday, I decided that I wanted to see him again ^_^ He didn't have the car on that day so I drove over instead. Wow... this may sound stupid but I'm actually proud of myself for reaching his place without any help. I was all prepared to get lost on the way or something... *bad bad bad sense of direction*
We went to this little Italian place for dinner, and he introduced me to blue cheese pizza and some raw beef dish, not entirely my kind of food but I certainly did have loads of fun with him that night.
Then today, I originally planned to go home in the afternoon, but we ended up watching a movie in MV. And it was at 6... so I ended up home much later than originally planned =P But dad didn't seem to mind.
We brought up the issue of telling my family about him yesterday night during dinner. I had meantioned that for a relationship to be serious, I'd at least have to be able to tell them about him. And so he asked, since they don't know about him, does that mean I'm not serious? Well, I am serious, but I do really need to tell them about him. And so now we're kind of trying to figure out a way for them to know about him =P
One plan I was thinking of doing earlier, but we didn't bother using it, was to take him home with me, let him help me carry my stuff in, and then go out for movies with him. That way they'd at least know I was going out on a date with him... but I decided not to since MV's kinda near to his place... rather not drive to Subang and MV and back home again.
I was even trying to drop some hints tonight... talked about being in MV, talked about the blue cheese pizza which I wanted dad to try... But they don't seem to be getting the hints. Surprisingly, they never asked who I was out with today, nor did they ask how I ended up eating in that Italian shop.
Bah... I'll figure something out soon. I really want to tell them, even if I'm not sure they'd like Jin. Well, cover up the tattoo, hide the tail... he'll do fine I think.
We'll see how it goes in a few days. Maybe I'll bring it up tomorrow? Scary thought...
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